sit down...

Mon, 19 Jul 2004 08:20:49 GMT

You know, the sun is in your eyes
And hurricanes and rains
and black and cloudy skies.

You're running up and down that hill.
You turn it on and off at will.
There's nothing here to thrill
or bring you down.
And if you've got no other choice
You know you can follow my voice
through the dark turns and noise
of this wicked little town.

Oh Lady, luck has led you here
and they're so twisted up
they'll twist you up. I fear.

the pious, hateful and devout,
you're turning tricks til you're turned out,
the wind so cold it burns,
you're burning out and blowing round.
And if you've got no other choice
you know you can follow my voice
through the dark turns and noise
of this wicked little town.

The fates are vicious and they're cruel.
You learn too late you've used two wishes
like a fool

and then you're someone you are not,
and Junction City ain't the spot,
remember Mrs. Lot
and when she turned around.
And if you've got no other choice
You know you can follow my voice
through the dark turns and noise
of this wicked little town.

back in shitsville for a night...NY tomorrow

Fri, 18 Jun 2004 02:34:14 GMT

heres the deal-io. i will be arriving in NY on the 19th or 20th. i will partake in a family reunion for the first three days, and then i'm going to Cape Cod with Kate on the 23rd. I will be in Cape Cod for a week. I will then return to Hastings and stay there for a week and four days. now here's the decision making part and I need your help.

choice # 1- CRUISE IN ITALY AND GREECE

+ i have never been to europe before
+ i might have fun
+ free of charge... grandpa is paying
+ parents wont guarantee another trip to europe until i graduate college so it's a once in a lifetime opportunity.
- staying in cramped room with parents
- next youndest person down from me is 40 or so
- only 6 hours in each town. i would rather be immersed in a culture.
- i might regret not staying in NY and be depressed the whole 2 weeks of the trip

choice # 2- REMAIN IN NEW YORK

+ guaranteed fun and satisfaction
+ have been missing it all year
+ i will feel like i live there again
+ might go to Annas in DC for a couple nights to a week or so
+ some people will arrive in those 2 additional weeks whom i wont be able to see if i go to europe.
+ no parents
- kate is working a 9 to 5 job so i might be bored
- people might not be around to hang out with me
- regret not going to europe if i end up bored all the time

tough decision. please help me.

Fri, 18 Jun 2004 02:12:17 GMT

i fucking hate this school. i hate nevada. i hate many of my "friends" and i want to move in with kate for fear of terminal insanity. help me, arghhh...

Mon, 14 Jun 2004 02:43:02 GMT

http://www.myfootprint.org/

really interesting. post what you got on it.

Sun, 13 Jun 2004 19:20:30 GMT

I need to know everyone who will be in NY this summer and the approximate (or exact) dates. I'm deciding between two additional weeks in NY (I will have been there for two after Cape Cod avec Kate), or Europe with mi famillia. Let me know asap please.

Sun, 13 Jun 2004 06:22:50 GMT

What's the matter Mary Jane, you had a hard day
As you place the don't disturb sign on the door
You lost your place in line again, what a pity
You never seem to want to dance anymore

It'sa long way down
On this roller coaster
The last chance streetcar
Went off the track
And you're on it

I hear you're counting sheep again Mary Jane
What's the point of trying' to dream anymore
I hear you're losing weight again Mary Jane
Do you ever wonder who you're losing it for

Well it's full speed baby
In the wrong direction
There's a few more bruises
If that's the way
You insist on heading

Please be honest Mary Jane
Are you happy
Please don't censor your trears

You're the sweet crusader
And you're on your way
You're the last great innocent
And that's why I love you

So take this moment Mary Jane and be selfish
Worry not about the cars that go by
All that matters Mary Jane is your freedom
Keep warm my dear, keep dry

Tell me
Tell me
What's the matter Mary Jane

Sun, 13 Jun 2004 05:40:05 GMT

i'm such a fucking sociopath.

Sun, 06 Jun 2004 05:15:00 GMT

1. Unitarian Universalism (100%)
2. Liberal Quakers (96%)
3. Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (96%)
4. Neo-Pagan (88%)
5. Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (87%)
6. New Age (86%)
7. Mahayana Buddhism (84%)
8. New Thought (84%)
9. Bahá'í Faith (80%)
10. Theravada Buddhism (76%)
11. Scientology (75%)
12. Taoism (66%)
13. Reform Judaism (63%)
14. Secular Humanism (57%)
15. Hinduism (51%)
16. Orthodox Quaker (51%)
17. Jainism (50%)
18. Sikhism (50%)
19. Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (46%)
20. Jehovah's Witness (40%)
21. Mainline to Conservative Christian/Protestant (40%)
22. Orthodox Judaism (35%)
23. Islam (29%)
24. Nontheist (27%)
25. Eastern Orthodox (21%)
26. Roman Catholic (21%)
27. Seventh Day Adventist (21%)

that was a pretty cool test. take it by searching for belief-o-matic on google...

Sat, 05 Jun 2004 23:59:53 GMT

i promise to update this journal more often. i'm so nervous/excited for everything this summer. i have just been having a sort of hard time lately even though nothing has physically changed about my surroundings...if anything, things have gotten better. its just a boundary in my own mind that i can't get over and it has just been tough and i probably make no sense right now so it's best that you just ignore me i suppose...

Sat, 22 May 2004 02:52:27 GMT

its been an insane couple of months. im doing shitty in school but at least i have friends and im not completely depressed any more. things have changed so much, and im osrry if i havnt been keeping in touch with many of you but its hard to juggle two alternate lives sometimes....but this summer is going to be so awesome. i hope i gte to see you all... well im out. IM me once in a while...i get lonely (and homesick). and with that, i leave you with this-

You are Samantha Darko. You are very unaware of
what is happening around you. "What's a
fuckass?"

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how i love that movie.

Tue, 04 May 2004 05:51:10 GMT

the infamous "pink cup," which is, in fact, red.

Tue, 04 May 2004 04:28:51 GMT

~Post a memory of me. It can be anything you want. Then, post this to your journal and see what people remember of you.~

Wed, 28 Apr 2004 20:35:35 GMT

yeah so i must say that there arnt very many HHS people who i care for to read this journal anymore...i probably wont be writing in it much anymore since the only people who care about me or it or what so ever i talk to on the phone all the time now anyways... you all piss me off sorry. too much drama and what not. its not worth it anymore.

aaaahahahahahahahaha

Sun, 18 Apr 2004 21:17:54 GMT

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Sister	Milla Jovovich
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kate- you must take this quiz. oy...haha.

obladee obladaa

Fri, 09 Apr 2004 07:25:48 GMT

grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
"I'm just going to lie in bed conserving my strength"

2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
my book shelf

3: What is the title of the third track of the cd in your computer or cd player?:
for once in my life, there is nothing in my cd player or computer...better go put something on.

4: Turn your tv on right now.. what or who is on?:
a crime scene on reno 911....how appropriate...

5: What or who is in the photo nearest you right now?:
a column of three roses. pink on top, yellow on the bottom, and a wilted pink and yellow flower in the center. it says- "harold feinstein. the miracle of roses".

6: What is on the walls of the room you are in?
the roses poster, a giraffe poster (dont ask please), a painting by my grandma, a row of gerber daisies, another painting my my grandma, and a book shelf. this is a tv room computer type thing, so i just threw it all together without caring much what it looked like.

7: What are you wearing?:
damonte track sweats and a white t-shirt ((rachel...thats scary...like the same)

8: What is the current lyric in the song you are listenig to?
nothing...isnt that odd??

9: When you fold your hands in your lap, which thumb is on top?:
left, but i rarely "fold my hands"

10: Look outside the nearest window.. what do you see?:
darkness, and the reflection of the room.

11: Seen anything weird lately?:
yes. i was in a restaurant, and as a decoration there was an empty barrel keg-type thing, and a grumbling old man hobbles up to it, hits it, and hearing the hollow noise says- "empty..." then he grumbled once more, spoke to himslef, and hobbled off. i laughed for a good while.

12: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is:
12:30?

13: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
12:25! not bad...

Thu, 01 Apr 2004 02:44:40 GMT

Ok I am having a need for some good new CD's. On the list-

- Radiohead (hail to the thief)
- The Strokes
- The White Stripes (elephant)
- Interpol

and some more but those are my highest. Gotta get some money. hmmm.... gotta get a job....

hmmm...no. no time.

kirakirakira

Thu, 01 Apr 2004 02:42:13 GMT

PASSIONATE LOVER. You love to love, always looking
for a relationship. You cannot live without it.
Your lover must be passionate and you want
that you and your partner melt into each other.
He/She should not try to take the domination .
You dont want a relationship without passion,
and the sexuality plays a big part. The first
moment you meet him/her is one of the most
important. There has to be something between
you , you cannot explain. From the first moment
on everything must fix. But when this passion
disappears you disappear to. For you it is
better to leave than to see your love
restrained.

PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my
quiz, I worked hard on it.You can always
message me or tell me how I can improve that
quiz. Ill sure write back.

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hmmm... really?

If you're naked...I dont care.

Fri, 19 Mar 2004 03:05:28 GMT

Hello darlings and darlettes. Havnt written for quite a while. I think I have a new one yes I think I do. And maybe its not as intense as the last one (which is now completely gone) but its still a bit fluttery. And if you have no idea what i am talking about right now - a new crush. Surprise surprise. Tadaa. Just to let you know. I have been staying late at school lately for tech for the musical which I really really wish I was in. And i want to be around him. All the time. And I dont know why. AGGHHH. Is he gay? He better not be. I might give up on my love life forever if that happens to me again. Go off and become an intisexual. Sounds pretty appealing right now. I have the most uneventful love life out of anyone I know. Im one of the last two and I find that to be depressing. Ok so wish me luck on.....things I need luck in....which is just about everything.

kirakirakira

Thu, 11 Mar 2004 03:41:10 GMT

Fight Club!

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use soap.
mmmmmmm...brad pitt...

Sat, 06 Mar 2004 06:03:41 GMT

oy. so my life has been going smoothly and i was beginning to feel happy with the way things were going and im ok until i remember everything im missing mew york and how much i miss everyone and everything and the weirdest things like the way peoples houses smell and the way my school buzzed around me and i felt like my time stopped when everyone elses was in fast forward and the things i felt and pretty much where i grew up. and now kate and this boy, and i dont think i can stand it any longer. i need to be in ny. sometimes people want things and they say they need them but not like this. and i was rememebring jenas pool with frances, and what it felt like to talk about mark in the dressing rooms in btc and all the little things that used to be my life. and little by little im forgetting and its starting to scare me cause i never want to forget even the slightest details. and people here just arnt the same and there are only a few who i like and i fucking hate assemblies casue in hhs we never had spirit rallies practically every month and it makes my head hurt and my mind race and i always leave them feeling like shit. then track was great. it was a really beautiful day for running but i had to leave early and go to dance and i realised that i am establishing a life here and although that is what i ahve been wanting, now i dont know. the more of a life i form here, the more it disentegrates in new york and i hate it. i should stay a loner in nv until i can go back and live in ny. you guys better be around during the summer because i love you. all of you. and i love hastings (ggaasspp) and you all should too cause you have no idea how lucky you are.

kira

good luck deciphering this email. sometimes i dont feel the need to make sense to anyone besides myself.

Sun, 29 Feb 2004 21:12:17 GMT

what would you do if you were told by a guy that you are a "more realistic option" in comparison to SI swimsuit models? just a question...ugh.

Sun, 29 Feb 2004 09:49:25 GMT

yeah...so im a self proclaimed freakazoid who needs to gets some rest... gooten nacht

obladee obladi life goes on bah lalalala life goes on.

Mon, 23 Feb 2004 21:59:53 GMT

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je suis dans l'ecole maintenant...oy.

is there ushc thing as a jewish french person? let me know please, to prevent from further embarrassment.

Mon, 23 Feb 2004 05:01:50 GMT

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Sun, 22 Feb 2004 07:41:54 GMT

WOW!!!!

JUST when i thought my love life was non existent, BAM! dont want to post this here...email me for details. all i can say is that i am so so happy right now. more happy than i have been since i moved, literally. its days like these that make me wonder how anybody could ever say "fuck the world" or "fuck everyone" cause its such a beautiful place. im sure i will feel differently tomorrow but for now...i can confidently say i am euphoric. it was definately an i feel infinite sort of night.

and that makes me happy beyond words.